The real and true apology to the old MWGG team

This is the real apology to my old team. Not my mom's. (May be edited/changed at any possible time)

This apology is not expected to be forgiven, but it is an attempt to better understand the situation that has happened in the old server.

My parents just kept telling me it wasn't my fault, but they didn't know what happened too well. They just made me sweep the argument under the rug and make me feel good about myself and not have to take any points into consideration. They basically did all the talking and not myself, which shows I refused to understand the situation.

And honestly I was upset when I saw my responses to the Hop Files posts, as I was yet again not taking the criticism well at all, and just kept straight up defending myself.

I learned so much from this, but I wish I could prove it. I am not asking for an accepted apology unlike what I previously claimed, I just want to speak to the old team one last time and hope it's considered an improvement over my mother's written apology.

But to me, it feels like apologizing tends to make things worse, as people who apologized almost always receive backlash for "not understanding the situation correctly" or being "passive aggressive" or "guilt tripping" or "completely biased towards themselves". But I know damn well what happened and I can't lie about it, considering there's an hour long video and a bunch of tweets that can easily prove any of my claims wrong.

That's right. I:

- Guilt tripped the team.

- Said several uncomfortable things to them.

- Completely exposed a member in the server and accused of tracing. And also accused that person of being ableist.

- Allowed underage users into the server and enabled bad behaving ones.

- Knew damn well Wubbzy was a creep and I saw his bad history. Even though he did nothing wrong in the server, I should've banned him anyway. Same goes for anyone else with a bad record, but I was too kind and forgiving to do so. Turns out, liking has it's limits.

- Scrolled through my VA's social medias, but in all honesty I still don't understand why they call it a bad thing. My guess is because they don't want me seeing their old and cringy content, which is fair that's true.

- Framed someone for creating the Hop Files Twitter, which yet again led me to losing trust. The reason: They were posting evidence that happened after June 16 when several members had already left.

Note: There's a few points they claimed I felt were inaccurate, but I don't want to list them because I don't want to cause any more drama. I ain't much older than the cast (at least 1-3 years), but because I turned 18, they portrayed me like a fully grown adult. I was 17 when I started the server and they will be 18 very soon. 

My viewers haven't sent me direct harassment thankfully (thanks to the old team for telling people not to harass me), but even so, I've seen a few faces I had liked either block me on social media or I found them talking negatively behind my back because of this situation. INCLUDING new people who had joined my new server. It's hard to scroll through MWGG fanart when you're guessing how many fanartists could have blocked you.

So yes, this is my view on the situation. There's probably several points that I have completely missed, so if this doesn't work out good enough as a response, I get it. I just want my old voice cast to proceed with their new project and not have to worry about me or my creepiness as a person. And by the looks of it, I think it's working out, as they have stopped posting ever since the "truth" video.